I am content with my performance. I don't regret doing a solo performance at all and I don't regret the choices I made, however I did mess up a tiny bit in the movement and forgot a large chunk of what I previously rehearsed. To be completely honest, things were going so well in terms of devising and rehearsal but I think, in the end, I did end up thinking about it more than actually doing it physically, so my mind knew what was up but not my body.
I believe however, I did successfully connect to my emotions and objectives within my performance and this gave context to the performance.I hit the ground running with a lot of energy to keep the audience engaged, as I am more than aware of how draining it is to sit in the same spot for 3 hours and watch others perform when you're completely dreading your own. I think that, despite my average grade and person fuck up, I did try my best by being honest and respectful to the subject matter and taking inspiration from true and sources to create a real piece.
I could improve, next time, on being more prepared. I thought I was until it got to the actual day and the nerves hit me. I think I could have taken my time more and really put meaning into my movements because I did end up rushing them so I could flee from the stage. Overall, I am satisfied with my grade 5 as the marking does come down to what I showed that day in the assessment, not everything I thought about and the process it took me to get there. I am so very proud of myself for ever getting up and performing a SOLO PHYSICAL THEATRE piece in front of the whole strand. Just a couple of months ago, the thought of me getting up and performing a physical theatre GROUP piece made me feel sick, so to do a solo was either brave or stupid.
